I don't know if other athletes are like me (I think I can consider myself an athlete now). When I am on regen week it kills me. I want to get out and feel the speed, I want to work hard. I think most of all I fear going slow. I fear not having my legs respond.
I know, it is necessary to let the body heal. It is necessary to go slow, to go easy. I am new to this stuff, but try to be fairly well educated. I understand the science, the principles. Regen, recovery, it has to happen.
I also understand that psychology plays a HUGE role in sports. My performance is directly related to my brain's capacity to endure. Not only that, but the central nervous system is responsible for many more things in the body... all the mind over matter stuff and hormones.
Here is where things get harder, my fears are mostly warranted. I am pretty new to XC racing yet I find myself squared up against serious competition in CAT 1. In DH racing I could fake it, ride over my head, pedal my brains out for a short sprint. In XC racing there is no faking it. It is daunting for me to imagine that three years ago I weighed more than two or three of my competitors combined!
So now to the title. Does the self doubt during regen hurt the athlete? Would regen work better for me if I put in a few efforts to remind myself that I can still go fast, but am going slow for a REASON? That I won't have to worry about not being able to go hard, to go fast after a week of holding back...
I guess if it were easy to be an athlete, to train hard, to go fast, that everyone would do it. I am stoked at where I am, even if I can't hang with the big dogs.
Life is good. Gotta keep my head up and don't let the self doubt bring me down!
Happy weekend! (Wish me luck on unleashing the legs and suffering!)